Seeking Solitude

Seeking solitude in the crowd
I run in the traffic between screaming horns
Longing for peace from deep within
I leave behind my blood stained footprints
Searching for compassion
I see needy playing games
They loot, kill and steal
To hurt my heart
I explore to find if there is some sanctity hidden.
Parks are full, trees are slaughtered down to death.
Its been long I have seen a blue sky
Stars winking at me..
Its dark in the daytime
Scary than the night
I may inhale death or the death inhales..
I seek love..it is trust I cannot find..
Lust, greed has overpowered
People galloping with the maximum speed..
Chasing, I don't know what.
There is no left or right.
No courtesy, gentleness.
Don't know if there is a start..and
If at all there is an end..
I have inquest to get a glimpse of that end
Where the strides will finally stop..
Maybe I'll find my solitude there..
Hurt, sad, numb, eyes filled with tears..(Sagarmani)

Happy New Year

As the first rays of the sun touched me this morning
I realized its the last day of 2009
Cannot stop the time it is running
I have left another year behind

Tomorrow will be a first day
A new chapter in life
I'll be leading my own way
And many pages to write

I don't have a control over time
I'll have to paint it with the colors that I have
Sometimes it will be bright and happening
And sometimes it will be sad

I welcome you Oh!! 2010
I know you'll have different plans
I pray to you to hold me tight
So that I'll remain what I am.

Sorrow , pain, happiness and Joy
Are said to be part of life
The thing that matters the most is
Amidst these how you SURVIVE

I wish you'll a Happy New Year
Full of happiness and without fear
Live your life the way you want
Be happy and that's what counts..(Sagarmani)

New Year---Searching Eternity

I look back to see when I started this year
Happy I was there was no single fear
Dream were being polished..but fulfilled.? No
Now I ask myself, where am I supposed to go?

Chasing my dusted dreams
There is no one to listen even when I scream
How long will I pat myself saying its Okay?
How long will my fake satisfaction portray?

My achievements which I have never touched
My cheerfulness which is withering away
My secret dreams untouched
How will I survive in the coming days?

Am I born to be a common man?
Sacrificing petty things in life
Am I supposed to live like this
Celebrating new years without light.

Darkness is on...it has darkened the dreams
Streams has Ocean but I have not even seen
A single glimpse of where I'll be..
Searching in the endless sky..my eternity.(Sagarmani)

I am a Terrorist

I have slaughtered my conscience
Stabbed my feelings
Strangled my desires and emotions
Hung my imagination
Butchered my compassion
Killed my mercy
Murdered my sympathy
Crushed my love
Decimated my kindness
Defeated my desires
Destroyed my dream
Exterminated my affection
Tortured my sweetness
Mutilated my tenderness
Slayed my thoughtfulness
Vanquished my heart
Massacred my brain
And I am here drinking blood...
Blood of the fellow humans,
Humans!!! They call me terrorist(Sagarmani)

Drunken Destiny

Sometimes it is hazy
Sometimes it is dark
Sometimes it is dusky
Sometimes as clear as spark.

I am low when its hazy
Sad when its dark
Moody when its dusky
And active when there is a spark

Clear yet confused
Darkened with hope
Hanging with desires
No rope to support

I move along with my drunken destiny
Hallucinated and high
I live with my drunken destiny
In illusion I sigh.(Sagarmani)

My destiny is detained(Appraisals)

I have many dreams
I have many promises to fulfill
I have liabilities to exhaust
There is a huge castle in the air I have built.

My mom wants a diamond ring
Dad wants a share from my side for a plot
I want to invest some cash somewhere
I need to save, to marry my love.

My brother wants to go out for a holiday
He wants a pair of Reebok shoes
I also want a pair of specs for myself
I need to clear all my dues.

My hope has been cello-taped inside a brown paper
I may add a brick to the castle or do even better
I may even have to lie to my mom
Saying, wait until few more months.

My dreams are shut inside a brown envelope
I can just pray to God with lots of hope
Or I'll have to wear my old shoes that are torn
To save the money to fill up my examination forms.

My plans are detained inside a brown paper
I may initiate them or have to arrange for dates later
My destiny and fate is locked with a tape
I may smile or frown until then I'll have to wait.(Sagarmani)

Mother's Cry

She was howling and crying in pain
Holding her baby she was running in the rain.
No food, no shelter, she wanted to feed her hungry baby.
She was pleading for help but no one was ready.

She had rashes on her body.
She didn't bother the bleeding wound
She wanted to save her child
Who was gonna die very soon.

She didn't know if it was a fever
Neither she knew it could be flu
Helpless she was as she was never
She didn't know what to do.?

Cursing herself on top of her lungs she roared
She was saying
“God, please don't make anyone a mother,
If you have destined her to be poor.”

She could only sigh and look at the sky
Praying to god not to let her baby die.
Helpless mother, with all the love she had
Lay flat one the street with the baby on her lap.(Sagarmani)